God....why me?

I am sure u kno the answer....but why me?....why did u make me soooo damn lazy!..i feel like i have lost all the energy that was pushing me this far. When i think it wud be this far only and no further....i feel like filth. Look at all the ppl who r around....man...they r all so ambitious..or atleast are soo soo involved in sumthing or the other..i am not sure if i have an answer to the question..whats ur hobby?!..do i have one?...........i hate this state of mind!...i jus wanna look at myself and say....can someone be more useless?